yeah!!for people who don't know, what cca
i'm from, i'm from track & field(throwers)
erm i throw the discus and the shot put
however the discus is my pet event..
which means i'm better at discus!!!haha..
i really really hope i can do well in this year's
NATIONALS as i've trained really hard..
i train from monday to saturday man..
and i told myself that every training i must
put in a 100%..whenever i go for training,
or should i say when i'm training sometimes,
i find myself getting really tired..
really really tired..i just wanna give up at times..
sometimes i even ask myself why do i train
so hard???whats the damn point??
why do i push myself so much??
for a piece of metal???for what??
sometimes i just wanna give up and just
change cca..to red cross maybe..
not as tough..
but as i train, i think about all these
QUESTIONS..
why?why?
and it can to me that i'm training for the glory
that i'll get when i get a medal..
glory cannot be bought with money..
we can't just pay a few people to clap for you..
we can't buy a medal and gain glory that way..
for glory can only be gained when people
really respect you for what you got
what you achieved
when we have put in the effort, pain and sweat
to get what what is worth these people clapping..
worth them respecting me and these are
the reasons why i wanna train hard..
the reasons that are worth me putting effort

to gain pride and glory for
the school, my family, my friends
and most importantly,
to gain pride and glory for myself..
to restore the medals and trophies
that once belonged to my school..
that once belonged to the victorians
that once belonged to victorians,
past, present and future..
to all victorians from track & field,
lets put in the effort and make the school
proud of us as i know she would understand
the amount of effort we put in..
to make her proud!!

CRAP!!!!just received news that my junior, Marcus,
has sprained his leg while playing soccer with
his ex classmates..damn it! told him not to play
too rough but he just dint listen..see what happened..
when he messaged me that his was had sprained his leg,
i really wanted to ring him up and scold him..
you guys may ask why..he is my junior and he trained hard..
Nationals are just around the corner, in early April and
he has to sprain his leg now???
how is he going to train up
for Nationals now that his leg is sprained??
what if he can't recover in time for Nationals??
at that time, i felt angry and scared at the same time..
why angry?for not listening to my advice as a senior
and as a friend..
why scared?i did not want him to fail in this year's
Nationals and be so depressed that he would not
come for training anymore..what would happen of him??
from a primary school shot put CHAMPION to a
LOSER who can't pick himself up from the ashes?
from a hero to a zero???
these are the reasons i felt so scared about..
but why did i stop myself from scolding him??
why??!
cause i did not want him to feel any worse then
he is feeling right now..so i guess i started to comfort
him as i knew he would have started to regret his actions..
this happened to me once too..when i played soccer and
injured me my knee cap..could not train for
about 2WEEKS..maybe i just wanted to scold
him as i did not want history to repeat itself..
maybe i was just angry with myself for not listening
to my seniors and i just wanted to vent my anger?!
no matter what, i hope he learns from his mistakes
like how i learned from mine and be more
careful the next time..